Last year was a tough year. More tough times then revelations. Throw in a few melt downs, money troubles, and the worst job imaginable. But as I always do, I stuck to my guns and held on tight to my faith. In this season of my life I entirely expect all the curves balls. By the end of last year I learned something about myself that almost scared me. I expect the curve balls so much that it is my new way of thinking. I had no idea how to handle the good things that had come into my life. I was too busy waiting for the one bad thing to happen so I could feel the comfort in it's ruins. Scary right? It became the common belief that when something good happens something is right around the corner to come in and mess it up. No more! I hate that this is how I've become. Perhaps the lesson here is that we are much harder on ourselves than we need to be. God graces us with good things and instead of accepting them we deny the gift instead of enjoying it. Maybe, we bring on the bad ourselves because we fail to appreciate the great things in life.
This year I resolve to not take the good things for granted just because I am afraid they won't last. I was going to add the list of resolutions like I always do (and believe me when I say I do have them) but I feel this was the most important resolution of all. Let's all resolve to appreciate more and fear less.
