The Reason for my Failed Spending Fast?

Alright I may be stretching this just a bit by making it my excuse but the honest truth is that what I am about to write has a lot of substance to it.
I recently signed up for an email subscription for tips on handling/saving money.  Some of the notices sent don't pertain to me in my life currently but I do find many of them useful.  The most recent article sent intrigued me and I wanted to share it along with a few of my own struggles.  The title was enough to make me want to read it.  "How hormones can sabotage your spending."  Geared for us ladies obviously! Hmmm!  I thought it might be nice to know the "science" behind that.  Apparently, out brains can be EXTRA sensitive and vulnerable two particular times in 28 days.  Like we didn't know that already?  Still, I ventured deeper into the article.  The two particular times are around ovulation and the week right before your period.  Why? Well, it seems that during the time of ovulation you brain can send signals making you feel FLIRTY.  This often times prompts you to buy more clothes and make up than usual.  Makes a  little sense.  Then, the week before your period begins your brain strikes once again with vulneravility.  In turn that makes us long for comfort.  As a distraction we turn to shopping for that comfort.  As the article from dailyworth.com put it, if you are feeling "financially frisky"  it may be caused by your hormones. 
        I am not shameful to say that I have bipolar disorder and the latter information in the article seems to apply to me ten-fold.  I often times find myself buying things to feel a void of comfort.  I have no true logical explination for it other than it makes me feel good to spend money sometimes.  I buy things that make me feel pretty, things that make me feel creative, and things that make me feel good in general.  I am a self-professed shop-a-holic who truly has an addiction to spending money.  I don't know if that is a real thing or not but I have it!  It can become difficult for me at any given moment of any given day to stop myself from spending money on things I really don't need.  The spending fast was to help me gain discipline over this addiction or really bad habit.  It was suppose to show me that I can live with what I already have without cluttering my life with other illogical things.  And most importantly I am worth more than material things!  So, my spending fast continues for yet another 30 days.

30-Day Spending Fast

My 30-day deadline is fast approaching and I haven't written a single post since the first. Shame on me for not keeping my word but mostly for breaking my spending fast after the first day......!!!  Was it worth it?  No! The answer is a BIG. FAT. NO!  I spent my hard earned money on Dr. Pepper from Sonic.  It is hard for me to pass up a chance to get an ice cold soda on a hot South Louisiana day.  Ugh, the disappointment I feel.  Even though Dr. Pepper's are my guilty pleasure it wasn't the only thing I spent money on.  I did get a few good deals on party supplies that I will be using at the end of the year for my son's 5th birthday.  I mean really good deals!!!!!! I just couldn't pass it up.  However, if I don't get a hold of my finances he might not get that birthday party after all.  So, my 30-day spending fasting was not the huge success I had hoped for but I am not giving up.  I intend to continue this until I get it right.  I think it is a good lesson and a great continuing habit.